The issue of compromise

After one month on the job, I'm beginning to truly understand why people say that you should get a job that you love to do. Do what you love. Love what you do. Now I realize that it sucks to be stuck in a place, with an activity, that I don't love.

I decided to take the job I'm currently in for good reasons. I want to expand my network, develop my speaking skills, yadda yadda. I'm a firm believer of discipline, of growing, and I was thinking that it's time to develop another aspect of my personality. (Plus the interview went really well.) But sometimes, I think I've been "sales talked". Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the trust and opportunity being given to us (yes, I can see the bright side), but it just wears me out sometimes. And it's not even because the work is already hard.

I'd like to be able to get up every morning and look forward to going to work.

I'd like to be able to sit at my desk and not wish that 5pm would come already.

I'd like to be able to work in a place where my boss will literally have to drag me out of the office because I love my work too much. Hahaha, okay, that's stretching it a bit. But you know what I mean.

I don't want to think that I'm stuck, if only because the first job dictates the rest. Some people believe that. I don't. I don't want to. It's not denial. I just refuse to be boxed into something simply because it's the hole I found myself crawling into.

The problem is, I'm not sure what I would really love to do for the rest of my life. In the meantime, I'll just stick it out. Maybe I'm underestimating my work. And I just have to figure out what I would love to do next.