Aller et retour

As with every hiatus, there must be a comeback. So here I am. This is probably the shortest blog leave I ever took. I've gone through three blogs already, and consequently, I've gone on temporary MIA status on all of them.

As you've noticed, I don't normally post a Cam-status on my blog. It's not only because (a) nothing particularly interesting and exciting really happens to me and (b) there's really nothing to tell, it's mainly so that people will ask me themselves. I don't like discussing my life "in full everyday detail" in public. I'd rather tell you personally. So if you would like to know what's going on in the non-exciting yet colorful life of mine, you'd have to ask me yourself.

C'mon. It's nice to exert a little effort, just a wee bit more muscle, in keeping touch. Mediated conversations (a.k.a. email/instant messaging) come easy enough.

Hmmm. I don't have anything to say in particular. I just felt that the time to return has come! It's really hard to believe that it's already February. In exactly one month and 18 days, it will be our one-year anniversary as graduates! It creeps me out a bit to know that by next month, we will no longer be the "Fresh Meat" of the real world (though technically, we probably lost that status as soon as 12 midnight struck on January first). What pains me most about this is that it has been one year and I haven't exactly figured out the "grand plan of my life." It is rather unsettling, but I do expect things to just naturally unfold somehow. I mean, it just has to, right?

Gosh, I still remember what February felt like last 2006. The air was unmistakably tense. It was a mix of stress, anxiety, and the general excitement about the thought of ending a four-year experience in just a few weeks (yes, the academic schoolyear technically ended on February, and everything up until March was just extra non-academic stuff). Now, I find that I'm still in a state of panic. Sorry, change that to unrest. Mental unrest, to be more precise. Up there, it's a constant flurry of different emotions. If only it came with an off switch.

In spite of what must seem like a state of distress, I am actually quite happy. I guess confusion isn't enough to burst the happy bubble. I've still got quite a lot to be grateful for. =)