The beauty of waiting and sitting still

I used to think that waiting is for wusses who needed a convenient excuse to sit around and not do anything. The total opposite of being proactive, in short. I should know. I held this against myself for quite some time now. It's tough not to have the answers right away. But they come. Eventually. It may take a while, but it does. And if it seems like the answers just wouldn't come, sometimes all it really takes is a little honesty with ourselves. More often than not, much of the escaping that we do are simply those from the truth.

That would be incredibly ironic, no? Incredibly ridiculous also. Surely, anyone with the proper sensibilities would do no such thing. This, however, would discount the fact that even people with proper sensibilities have fears too. There is the fear of failure, rejection, or just simply finding out that he isn't good enough.

Then again, people with proper sensibilities must have some idea that not even trying is a helluva lot worse.

Anyway, I'm getting sidetracked.

The beauty of waiting. It's incredible, the way things are rushed these days. Fast-paced isn't only meant for work. It's meant for food, lifestyles, and relationships. The world, at least, the non-European world, has converted itself to a giant Instanoodle. Is it difficult to keep up? Not really. But sometimes, don't you just wish that the world would slow down? I do. A lot of times, actually. There's just very little time for feeling, for really being there at the moment when it happens. Whatever it is. Because really, the moment you open your eyes, or even realize that a moment is being made, it has long gone. And I've realized that personally, I've come to realize the "feelings" either in hindsight (as in most cases), or when everything is just flowing slowly. But the flipside of our Instanoodle world, I guess, is that waiting for all those moments become a lot more meaningful.

It isn't fun to wait. But it makes all the fleeting non-moment moments all worthwhile. As for the rest of the world, well, try sitting still sometimes. It kind of brings you back, and gives you a sense of the important stuff. Some might say that that isn't living. It's hard to live sans the adrenaline rush and endorphins these days. But really, living affords us a free pass to self-indulgence every now and then.